Thoughts / 7:53:00 PM

Camaraderie.
People walk in and out of your life, leaving that teeny weeny bit of impression in you.

Okay, in short, I just miss some of them so much.
So much that I wish I could unwind time and keep some people in my life.
One's back in China, one over at the states, some others more.

I miss them ):

Family / 7:27:00 PM

It's been a while that I've last shopped.
It's been a while since I've last shopped with my mom.
We had so much fun, and both our days ended well.

All in all, family are the ones who will walk you through your life.
Ultimately, they are the ones who truely understands you, and they are the ones who will forgive you for any mistakes be it minor or major.
It's fate that I have such awesome parents and siblings.

Treasure them while you can.

Trustworthy or not. / 4:40:00 PM

After being through some ordeals in just these recent growing years,
I'm glad that I've learnt to not place too much trust, or lean onto someone too much.

A leopard will never change its spots.
That, I've withnessed it.

Be free on your way; Let's save the troubles.

Bad time. / 12:22:00 AM

First, it started with all the nonsense of having backache etc.
Next, pimples attack.
Next, rashes on my wrist and fat thigh.
Next, sorethroat.

What's next?
Who cares, I'm still sitting for my papers anyway.

Right on track. / 1:59:00 PM

Just few days back, I broke down, telling Shirlyn how mean the reality was.
We booked the teachers weeks, or even a month plus back for consultation, only to have them saying they are too busy to give us any when it's just a week away from our papers.
I feel so idiotic when I couldn't solve one math question, especially looking through the solutions some more. I have only myself to blame, that I did not place in effort to build my basic foundations when I was in primary school, secondary school. Laugh at me, I can't really do shapes-related question when asked about volumes, surface area etc. I can't really get the picture or what they mean by real roots etc. I can't really solve mole chapters in Chemistry.
The regrets.
After all these days of plain studying, eating, sleeping, I find myself tearing over aches - headache, bad shoulder conditions. I started panicking, thinking how am I supposed to sit through my 3-hour long Math paper when all the aches will sit in just less than an hour. Not to say, it's 2 freakin GP papers in the morning, followed by Bio paper2 in the noon straight.
I find the joy in studying after falling once, after moving away from work-office. Yet, when the shoulder shit thing comes it, I can't help but just tear, thinking why can't I study in peace.

All these while, it's not that I excel in non-academic area, but at least, I'm always better at other things be it sports, music, or whatsoever. The least, I have everything running through smoothly. Achieving throphies, medals, getting rare opportunities from Guzheng, gaining recognition through it, passing my driving, having others cheering up when they are down etc. I'm capable of those, but not a break through in my academic side.

Someone, please take away the aches just for this while.
I'm really VERY affected by it ):

Yet, I feel blessed.
Haha, heaven must have heard my cries that night after talking to Shirlyn, cos all the teachers suddenly agreed to have consultation, asking me when will I be free, helping me through everything. Even friends come siding me, carrying me through when I was so down. I really hope everything will be paid off.

Thanks, Shirlyn. (:

write about yourself here like how you lived through a crisis like the morrocian crisis. erps, have you studied about that before and about your test, how easy it is and how much confidence you have to pass and get all A1s for all subjects, add in your own wish here, and what you would do if target is not reached, like slash your wrist, eat many many painkiller pills at one shot and die. lol it's suicidal thoughts. stay away from that. but you need to enter a reality, everyone's doing that- it's the trend, so why not follow it. unless you want to be an odd one out. cause slashing wrist is soo common in girls school not in boys school. boys suicide, just like die gracefully from 30th storey, just look on the bright side, maybe you have lived in a lie too long and so you have found out the turth now, just think. optimist wins. you have entered into a world of reality



We know life's hard, truth is hard, lies are hard, they are all hard to accept when they have been found out, and i'm rushing history homework on the Abyissian Crisis about Italy and Abyssia going into war and that the League Of Nations cannot stop this from happening, and beacuse they are formed by means to stop war and peace-keep the countries together, they have thus failed to achieve that. I think i tend to hold a class for history instead of telling you about me, i'm basically a what subject-realted lover (humanities) and thus I am more analytical and critical about things, and likes to study about dead people, haha. lol. it's history what can you expect and also geography, it amazes me. I really like it alot, so what have you? Again to find this answer you need to enter into your own reality and reflect




it's amazing. amzing how people change the way of things, like how I used to hate outdoors in Band felt it was a complete waste of time, i've acquired to like it more, i guess people change, their thereotical means and applications in life just goes on into a new direction, and see things in another perspective, i guess- it's all in the mind. It really amazes me how these comes into action, from someone so pessimistic has changed his own view of things, and thus my friend is scoring much better, being more optimisitc and not think of his old way of suicidal thoughts, which are pretty daunting. and thus we need to see things, in another light, another perspective and another new way, to enable us to open up our minds, and make more new things, the new way it is. done with the old back with the new

i've hiatus-ed.

Thoughts / 7:53:00 PM

Camaraderie.
People walk in and out of your life, leaving that teeny weeny bit of impression in you.

Okay, in short, I just miss some of them so much.
So much that I wish I could unwind time and keep some people in my life.
One's back in China, one over at the states, some others more.

I miss them ):

Family / 7:27:00 PM

It's been a while that I've last shopped.
It's been a while since I've last shopped with my mom.
We had so much fun, and both our days ended well.

All in all, family are the ones who will walk you through your life.
Ultimately, they are the ones who truely understands you, and they are the ones who will forgive you for any mistakes be it minor or major.
It's fate that I have such awesome parents and siblings.

Treasure them while you can.

Trustworthy or not. / 4:40:00 PM

After being through some ordeals in just these recent growing years,
I'm glad that I've learnt to not place too much trust, or lean onto someone too much.

A leopard will never change its spots.
That, I've withnessed it.

Be free on your way; Let's save the troubles.

Bad time. / 12:22:00 AM

First, it started with all the nonsense of having backache etc.
Next, pimples attack.
Next, rashes on my wrist and fat thigh.
Next, sorethroat.

What's next?
Who cares, I'm still sitting for my papers anyway.

Right on track. / 1:59:00 PM

Just few days back, I broke down, telling Shirlyn how mean the reality was.
We booked the teachers weeks, or even a month plus back for consultation, only to have them saying they are too busy to give us any when it's just a week away from our papers.
I feel so idiotic when I couldn't solve one math question, especially looking through the solutions some more. I have only myself to blame, that I did not place in effort to build my basic foundations when I was in primary school, secondary school. Laugh at me, I can't really do shapes-related question when asked about volumes, surface area etc. I can't really get the picture or what they mean by real roots etc. I can't really solve mole chapters in Chemistry.
The regrets.
After all these days of plain studying, eating, sleeping, I find myself tearing over aches - headache, bad shoulder conditions. I started panicking, thinking how am I supposed to sit through my 3-hour long Math paper when all the aches will sit in just less than an hour. Not to say, it's 2 freakin GP papers in the morning, followed by Bio paper2 in the noon straight.
I find the joy in studying after falling once, after moving away from work-office. Yet, when the shoulder shit thing comes it, I can't help but just tear, thinking why can't I study in peace.

All these while, it's not that I excel in non-academic area, but at least, I'm always better at other things be it sports, music, or whatsoever. The least, I have everything running through smoothly. Achieving throphies, medals, getting rare opportunities from Guzheng, gaining recognition through it, passing my driving, having others cheering up when they are down etc. I'm capable of those, but not a break through in my academic side.

Someone, please take away the aches just for this while.
I'm really VERY affected by it ):

Yet, I feel blessed.
Haha, heaven must have heard my cries that night after talking to Shirlyn, cos all the teachers suddenly agreed to have consultation, asking me when will I be free, helping me through everything. Even friends come siding me, carrying me through when I was so down. I really hope everything will be paid off.

Thanks, Shirlyn. (: